Thursday
night, 10-10
(logged
on my phone – catching up again)
I am myself,
but a much darker version. I have hit
the proverbially “rock bottom.” It’s
nighttime, and I’m standing outside in a gravel lot. I am behind a dive bar from which I was a
patron. I’m staring of into space with a
cigarette in one hand, a leather motorcycle jacket on, and heavy, dark make-up
cakes my face.
“Fuck it,” I
say aloud to myself, and I start walking. Through some accident of time and space (or
through the sci-fi tendencies of my dream state), I end up in my hometown in
the year 2002. Unfazed, I skulk past a
fenced-in playground area of an elementary school. Children are all over, running and yelling
and playing. I sneer menacingly at their
little cherub faces. In one of the kids,
I see a little James Franco. One corner
of my mouth rises in a grin. I look at
him and shake my head thinking, “Silly James Franco.”
I trek further
until I find myself outside of the high school.
There is a corridor between wings of the massive building. A bustle of high school kids in band t-shirts
is filing through the outdoor corridor.
They’re milling out, all talking to each other. An evil smile crosses my face. I scan the faces, recognizing many, but
looking for just one – me. The kids are
coming out in groups of their sections.
Pit percussion finally rounds the corner. I can see them. My group.
The only face I don’t see is my own.
I look down and realize that I have taken the place of my high school
self.
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